I recently recieved an email from a fellow TIG member who is currently going through school to be a minister... she wanted to know my thoughts on God and where I stood, as well as humans and our constant work to get money to get food to get strength cycle... Not to criticize, or argue, or teach me about but just to get a grasp on where I stood... In replying to her I stated my thoughts and feelings on religion and God. By doing this I have discovered even more about what my true feelings are, not that I didnt know how I felt but putting it into words and reading it back to myself put it in another light... This shows the power of writing and sharing opinions. I highly encourage others to do this as well because in doing so you discover more about yourself and learn more about others as well... Sharing beliefs and opinions with others and hearing theirs as well can teach u so many new things...
so anyways after I re-read the letter that I had written for Heather I decided that I wanted to share my thoughts and views on this topic with more than one person.. so i decided to post it on my page... feel free to voice your opinions on my beliefs or your own as I look forward to any feedback or new views to take into account... Heres the letter..

I'm comfortable talking about my beliefs with u but i dont think that they will be the same.. and i know thats ok with u, but im just preparing u hahaha... to start off I was reminded of one of my favourite sayings that i ever picked up from a book when u spoke about the endless cycle, of work, money, and food... That is that animals (not humans) are the only ones who know how to truly enjoy life... in the sense that they live to live, they live to have a home, raise babies and be free while they are alive... where as humans live to work so that they can spend the last 20 years or possibly less of their lives finally being free, but most being too old and tired to enjoy it, we waste away our youth working to be happy when we could be much more happier not working, except for the fact that now not working means poverty. those are my thoughts on humans and the working world anyways... even though it cannot be changed and probably is needed so that people can make sense of how they share things and what they "deserve"... which im not stating as part of my beliefs just as the average north american point of view that u work for what u deserve and what u deserve is what u get... which is really not true because there are plenty of people who do great things and do them for free or close to it and never become recognized for the great things they do... which i know your thoughts will be that they are recognized in the eyes of god and im sure they are but my thoughts on god are not yet concrete.... You know as well as any of my old school friends I was raised in a Catholic school and attended the Catholic church but now as an adult i definetly do not support it... I'm not sure about what to believe in God, i believe in a higher being that is for sure but when i think about God my mind goes back to the Catholic ways in which I need to attend church to truly speak with him and confess through a man who is supposed to be in close communication with God because he has given his life to celebacy and goodness, and that i have to go through a vast number of ceremonies to truly be considered an adult catholic... well i dont believe that... I believe that u can speak to God when you wish and that from no matter what building you are in he can hear you.. i believe that u ask for forgiveness through urself and through ur future actions because every person is equal in god's eyes so they do not need to confess to a human person (catholic priest) because that person is not any higher on God's list of people to listen to than you yourself are. So in that sense I guess the higher being that I believe in is what you would call God but I prefer not to give him this name because it just reminds me of the catholic version of him... and i know that u are not catholic now but i am just stating it in a way that i know both u and i have experienced... So i guess I more or less know what I believe in about "God" i just dont know how to refer to him without calling him "god" and then thinking of him in the catholic ways... Currently I do not believe myself to be involved with any religion which may be a reason why I often find myself wondering why i feel like something is missing or not yet completed that should be... I often find myself wondering where I am as a person, do i feel whole yet, and why not? and lately with my boyfriends chats on his own beliefs and wanting to explore other world religions to get a view on all aspects of God and life and see which one he feels makes most sense for him, has made me begin to think maybe i should do the same... As a future anthropologist, religion will be a major factor in my studies so I believe that it will be a lifelong journey for me before I finally decide on my code of beliefs and a possible religion... but thinking about it, I feel that I do not need to belong to a religion in order to feel this wholeness that those who are currently close to God must feel... it is more surrounding my beliefs... I think that through my life I will gather, obey and maybe discard certain beliefs as I become exposed to different world views and religions. In this way I hope to better myself, my life and my relationship with "god" but I am not sure if i will ever do this through one single religion... Instead bettering myself, my life, and my relationship with "god" will come from my very own set of beliefs that i will gather through experiences and lessons and in this way i feel that i will have a more personal relationship with my beliefs and with "god" because i came to terms with them on my own and not through reading or listening about what a certain religion tells me I should feel and do... and on that note i will end this, so i do not start to confuse or repeat :)... but i hope that you understand everything i have said and if u need better understanding just ask, writing this down has made me understand even more how i feel about this as well...